{Wednesday, 14 August 2013} 5:07 am
Yes, I think I might have Philophobia, or the fear of being loved.
Okay, it does sound terrifying (it terrifies me) to you, but I think I should come clean and admit it.
I thought at first I was just your another quirkyalone-er, but then, I realize that I'm afraid at the thought of someone is in love with me.
Seriously, it's frightening for me.
I don't know why, what the cause is but I'm 100% sure aside of the commitment issue that I have, I have this one too.
It feels strange if someone confess their love to me, I don't feel like they mean it.
All this time I thought falling in love is a friendship destroyer, which is almost true since after a couple's harsh break up, their original friendship won't be the same again. But, now I realize that it was just one of many reasons that my subconscious made so I can get away from almost any romantic conversations which ties the knot in my stomach instead of butterflies (I hate those types of conversation to be honest) without hurting the other party.
...Okay.
I know it sounds ruthless but this is who I am. Who knows maybe someday, I will overcome this fear?
It takes years, maybe.
Plus the commitment issue!
Good luck with that :D