{Wednesday, 14 September 2011} 6:37 am
today is a most depressing day in my life, earlier this evening, I lost something valuable in life.
it's not diamond or anything sparkly sparkly, I almost lost my sanity, like almost insane.
then, few minutes ago I had this running away thought, since my problem came from my fucking dysfunctional household.

this family is far from perfect, I know. it's not a healthy family again, I don't feel like staying here too long.
maybe yesterday I said "School is the last place I want to be", now it's Home, not school again.
please someone just take me away, kidnap me or anything so I can free myself from this lunatic house.

I lost an important figure in my entire life, my dad. it's not like he's dead or anything, it's just he changed.
I used to respect him, I thought he's the most respectable man I've ever know, a person that I can run into when I'm lost, anything good like that.
but somehow, nowadays I think he's worth less than garbage, scum, dirty person, doesn't need to be respected. simply because he doesn't have anything to be respected about.
I used to say, "Dad can u help me with this question?" like he's the smartest ass in our house.
but now, it's "I know what it is, don't budge me."
see the difference? I really lose my respect to him because of something-that-I-can't-say here... we just have this different point of view, got into a huge argument and ended up like this.
BUT HELL YEA I'M SMARTER THAN HIM AND HE'S NOTHING BUT A TRASH'S TRASH.

xo
FUD