{Friday, 19 August 2011} 8:36 am
so I've run some tests from my auntie about my... brain dominant side.
kinda boring? but I got an interesting results.
they say my dominant side is the right one. that means my creativity level is fairly high, laid back, doesn't put too much stress on real world, tend to keep my heads in the cloud, etc.
cool, huh?
to think that there's two sides of a brain, just like a coin. and that two sides are pretty much contrast.
or I can say, it is contrast.

from that, I learned that, I won't do very well on math or exact things like physics. cause I don't particularly like things that has an absolute answer.
I'd rather answer things that's gray. that needs further discussion or consideration.
why do I prefer those things? cause I'll probably solve them with my active, vivid imagination.
to be truth, yes, I admit that imagination is my only strength.
I don't do well on calculating things, organizing things or based-on-reality things (that's why I always say "Reality is Cruel.")
sometimes when my teacher is giving a lecture in front of the class, I found myself thinking about my novel, or my future. or maybe my minds are wandering out there, far away from class, maybe sometimes I dream about having a ranch on the moon or watching some flying cows passing through the clouds.
they say my dreams are unrealistic, or you can say surreal. if I'm talented enough, I can transform those into a work of art, a painting. like Salvador Dali did. but unfortunately, I'm just good at doodling.

and I began to think, what will I be later in life.
like I said before, I'd love to be a geologist. but it'll take more than creativity to work in science-field-job right?
they say I'll do well on art things, I just need to polish some of my "hidden" talent on art.
and fuck what they say, I still want to work in science related career. cause it's fun, I'll get a chance to find some new specimen, or maybe nearly extinct creature, or maybe I'll discover some creatures that supposed to be extinct long ago-- like the Coleancanths or anything like that.
but I'm considering to work as something that gives you total freedom. that doesn't have a deadline, or bugging Boss. and some work that doesn't require you to stay behind the desk all the time.
the problem is, I don't even know what kind of job is it. maybe it's just a dream job? cause all my life is based on a dream.
if you ever find one, or know a job that has those requirements, contact me immediately. thanks.

btw, I'm afraid if I dream too much, I won't be able to live in this real world again. but real world is cruelllllllllll much, in dream anything can happen! something that impossible in real world will be possible in dreams.
but there's nothing impossible in this world (except for raising the dead, obviously.) so we have to work on it until it possible.
If someone offered me a chance to change my whole life from scratch, I'd say no.
I love my life, even though some people (or many!) thought my life as a stuck-in-a-rut kind of thing, I don't care.
I want to work on my life before giving it up, and God please don't take it before I finished or accomplished some goals that I've set (based on my dreams of course).

some goals that I've set maybe sounds weird... to most people. and sounds well-that's-really-you to people that knew me well.
today, I'm in a good mood to tell you some of my wildest dreams.
those are:

1. going to Antarctica.
2. own a turtle farm on Galapagos.
3. tamed a Komodo Dragon.
4. Lunch with John Mayer.
5. buy a birkin bag.
6. live in new york.
7. live in alaska.
8. live in Lausanne.
9. climb Fitz Roy.
10. diving at the Belize's Blue Hole.
11. traveling to Bora Bora.
12. backpacking across Europe and South America.
13. kissed by John Frusciante.
etc.
there's a loooooooong list of my dreams.
and believe me, none of it makes sense to normal people.

they say I'm weird cause I never mad.
I never get angry to people, why? cause i don't feel like I want to.
even though that person has acted like a total muthafucka or crueler than Regina George, I still don't find a reason to be angry.
it's just a waste of energy :)
and it spreads negative aura :)
and negative aura makes you don't enjoy your life. all we need in this world is to enjoy our life while we still can, right?
nobody can tell what's going to happen to you tomorrow. so, enjoy every moment like me.
I'm afraid that I've wasted enough time back then :c, so I try to make it up by acting like a light breeze.
cool, laid back and interesting.
just like a breeze.
and i tried to avoid those with fiery temper, cause if wind meets fire, the wind will spread the fire and will blew some hot air.
I'm a good girl so I won't do that :xxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

enough for the ranting today, seeeeeeee ya.
xo,
Fud