{Saturday, 2 July 2011} 3:59 am
right now, i want to thank God for making me so cunning.
why cunning?
i tricked my mum, i told her i'd give a copy of my report card to the teacher for another evaluation...
but i didn't give it. i kept it on my bag. hahahaha, cause i don't wanna go to science class.
but things get worse when mommy knew about this, she knew it this afternoon, she asked me why does my teacher haven't texted her yet.
i'd love to lie again but, she'd call my teacher eventually. rather than make another sin, i told her the truth.
she was... furious. but not that furious.
and right now in my house, there's two people that intended to kill me. both of them are my parents, and i'd love to get away from here for few days.
and my seniors answered my prayer...
hopefully we're gonna go on a hike later, on July 8th to i-don't-know-mountain haha.
pray for me!!!
i'll tell you more stories later when we descend from that idk-mountain, i always have stories to tell ;)

and and and hello, have i told you? about someone... that pathetic enough to make me LMFAO?
hahahahah i guess i haven't!!!
this one, i met him on chat roulette. his name is Sam.
he told me that he recently broke up with his partner, Kayleegh or Kylee or Kylie i don't remember and don't care, and he felt like his world torn apart.
LOL.
pathetic, how one can mourn sooooo deeply just because they broke up.
dude they just left, they haven't dead yet. you shouldn't cry over girl/boy too much, if they bored of you, they left you.
just left. cause you're boring maybe?
try to make yourself less boring, by keeping yourself a mystery to most people.
they tend to stick around, trying to solve you. and when they became addicted... you got em.
and if you're cheap enough to letting one know all about you on one single chat or meeting, you're worthless.
even most prostitutes keep their lives private.
no offense dude, cause i hate everytime i hear someone longing about their bf/gf who left them already. they don't know what they're doing is a meaningless effort, it won't bring them back. just making them a laughing stock of some bitches who love to gossiped about them.
they've to move on. life's good, i'd love to help them cope!
like my friend, Kinan, she broke up recently and i told her to write, and she writes, she loves it :) keep going Kin!! xo.

and i'm glad that my friends, aren't cheap. they're expensive, priceless girls. i love them<3 thank God you gave them to me as friends.
they're a type of person that will reject a one night stand with a stranger, or a person that would act so nice to a person that they barely knew.
me? of course i'm not cheap.
i will be so cold to shady looking strangers.
i'll reject phone calls from someone that i don't know.
even i don't like to be photographed, i love to let people see me live, not through photos, cause i'm not that photogenic....
ok ok ok done with this part.
remember, no offense, i'm just sharing what i've been thinking all this time.

btw i had this quarrel with daddy. he doesn't like me being different, he once slapped me cause i wore red napkin on top of my head.
daddy's being a dick, i hate him. i want to go, away from home. maybe i'd like to get lost in a foreign country and live there alone.
no reckless parents around me, just me and me and me me me me me meeeee.
i'm gonna love it.
rather than live here with parents that doesn't understand me at all
a parents who wants their daughter to be normal
who wants me to follow their wishes
who doesn't let me going out alone at night
who doesn't let me invite my friends over
who doesn't let me express my thoughts
strict much?
you have no idea how they can be so stiff and sometimes, being nice.
i'm well aware of their motives if they acted nice to me sometimes, i thought they want something from me, but no. they only want to be nice to me
who cares, at least they're nice. as long as they treat me like their daughter, i'll respect them.
i'm not their dolls :)
i have my own wills.
to whoever out there who read my blog and thought that your parents are controlling your life, and you want it to stop.
you have to protest, even though they'll mad at you, but at least they'll give you your rights as kids.
we're just teenagers, we're not a puppet. we're human, independence are one of human rights, right?
i'm not trying to be an anarchist or what, i'm just stating my opinion to people, i hope parents would understand us much better.
especially when your parents like mine.

independence is all i have.

xo
fud.