{Friday, 29 July 2011} 8:06 am
When I'm lost, I write.
everytime.
so when I post a thing, it's because:
1. I'm bored
2. In pain
3. Totally ecstatic
4. No other reason anyway.

this post, it's because number 2.
in what pain?
see the title?
it supposed to be "The Adventure of Rain Dance Maggie"
why would I change the it? I don't know. you tell me since i picked 2 as my reason to write today.
heartbreak?
teenager's usual pain.
fyi: heartbreak is hurt more than any pains.
time heals all the wound, but not heart.
when you hurt it, it leaves a mark there. especially deep wounds.
that's why many people suicide cause love, either he/she has an unrequited love or their love was opposed by their parents or an obstacle comes on their way or anything. it's love that makes this world gone mad.
when it sweet, it makes this world look like a better place, even though nothing changes anyway on reality, but your subconscious mind says it is.
when it sour, it makes you feel like powerless, worthless, empty... in pain.
you can't think clearly when that happened.
yet you need to think before act to make sure your action won't annoyed other people.
since it's can't be helped, rather than spending time watching my pitiful twitter timeline and tweet a lot of cheesy things that will annoy the others. I'd better write here.
it's serene here.
nobody reads this anyway. so it's a good place to vent.

it was good at start :c
yes it is, i was so happy when he came near me today.
he spoke to me, yes yes yes. i missed that, we haven't chatted for long... i thought he has change.
but no :) he hasn't.
it was good and sweet and makes me smile through the day (at least till evening). and i saw something that makes my <3 goes <///3.
truly depressing.
i know i shouldn't care... but truth is, i care.
much to my surprise, i'm pretty jealous.
they say "Jealousy is the ugliest trait"
but, hey, it got me.
i can't handle jealousy well... don't force me to like someone that has a lot of admirer. i can't do that... i can't.
it hurts when i see some girls that (i know) likes him too, get close to him.
i just can't.
is this my weakest point?

dude, many great people die because of stupid thing called love.
it's man's greatest weakness, i was wrong when i thought that i'd never ever hurt because of love.
or in indonesian. "Galau."
but there's a little hope that he'd ever like me. but that's toooooooo little cause we fought a lot.
i just want to let him know that i like him. that's all.
but so sorry that i wasn't brave enough to talk with him or even say hi to him everytime we met.
xo,
brokenhearted juno.