{Friday, 1 April 2011} 1:54 am
TGIF TGIF, it's relieving to know that 2morro is saturday!!!
duuuuuuuude, saturday is like a little piece of heaven to every student. every normal student except those who loves going to school every day.
school sux, maybe i just not fit in. can we just study things that we love?
i mean like, if i love biology, music, geography, history, chemistry and art. can i just take those lessons and ignoring others???????

well i guess indonesian study-type is somewhat different from any other country out there... and i'm stuck here with this learning system which makes us to study everything-- even things that we kinda dislike.
for example;
1. Physics (although some chapters ARE interesting)
2. Sociology (nuff said, i hate this subject since i was an infant.)
3. Economy (EFFFFFFF this subject really makes me go nuts)
4. Mandarin Language (LOL, need German Language teacher puhlease)
5. Religion (i'm fucked up in this subject....)

those are subjects that i hate. ewwwwwwwwwwwww don't we supposed to choose things that we want instead of studying em all?
oh, that law only works in college later in life.
unfortunately for college i never thought about studying here :> except something holds me for not going abroad...
things that really bugging me ever since i think about going abroad is just... love?
maybe if God gave me some courage to lose contact with someone that i love here... i'll be ok out there.
question iiiiiiiiiiis, do i have him?
i mean like, do i love someone?

listen, maybe i looked like foreign-lover girl but sometimes.... a boy really got my heart. and this is confusing cause my lifelong dream is to married happily with foreign man, and travel the world with him.
but sometimes i wonder, what if i fell in love (NGAHAHAHA) with....... an indonesian?

ok ok ok, it's not that i'm in love or sumtin, just wondering haha. no kidding, i only date foreign B-).
or.... indonesian with some exceptions...
besides, if anything happens. i can never be a good girlfriend, cause i'm careless yet afraid of commitment.
my motto is : "if we can be friends, why more?"
i always scared relationship would end my friendship with him, that's why i feel comfy when my bestfriend says they like someone out there.
and i feel happy if my one of my BFF (male) dates a girl. im happy for u!!!! although sometimes i feel like left behind or being ignored...
haha i know it sounds lame cause i'm nothing, he has his own girl. his own priority, not me again. but it just that feeling came to me sometimes when he's not there for me.
i know BFF supposed to be there whenever one of us need em, i always there when he needs me. he's there too, but not always...
but yea i understand. x___x
he says it's my turn to look for someone who could care for me anytime whenever he's not there. a.k.a he asks me to find a BF.

umm ok, he's right.
time for me to look for a BF!!! even though i'm sorry at first cause i'm not romantic, not yet sweet.
i can't never be a good GF, but just see i'll always there when u need me.
just like the old times, i remember when i was in love with a person for 2 years. haha weird but it's true...
when i was tryin to avoid him he was just like coming and coming, it was like never end. started with simple messenger introduction leads to love, but that's past.
GOD HELP ME MOVING ON, it's killing me whenever i tried to look my old chatlogs and texts, well good thing is i just delete em all this morning!!!
wonderful trick to distract me from him haha.

oh yeah, and i barely had this uh-may-zinc news!!!! it says that Red Hot Chili Peppers or RCHP for short will came to Indonesia on Javarockingland this year!!!
idk for sure, and maybe it just some god-forsaken issue. but if it's true, it has lost it's best member, Frusciante.
OH GODDDDDDDDDDDD Frusciante left! and Klinghoffer is replacing him.
it's just that weird to see RCHP w/o John... i feel theres like a missing piece, just like seeing Mertesacker w/o Friedrich.. or Dora w/o Boots....
mmmm, done blabbering.
i doubt that someone would read my nonsense writing haha
xo